Biyernes, Setyembre 9, 2016

Words to Ease Your Hurting Heart!



I miss you
I love you

I love you so much

Why is it that you're so far?
I can't see you but you'll always be in my heart
To express this feeling I don't even want to part
It's hard to make people forget you,
when you've played a big part

Departure…departing…god I hate those words
Who wouldn't…it tells too much
It breaks your heart and makes you cry
I can't even say a simple word,
that will make my heart whole

I have to force myself to say goodbye
Secretly hoping it never ends
This time we have less to share
Whatever you do It all stays the same…
Goodbye and departure..
All leads to one single thing…parting

They all say you gotta face what's happening…
But I guess things are really easier said than done
Don't worry it's just the physical
You still have your heart…and that's all that matters
When you're feeling so torn apart
People come in and out of our lives
Those who leave? Some explain and some don't even care
They make you feel you're special but only after a while
You're just going to find yourself…alone and not all right

But someone or some people will come along
Making you feel that you always belonged
They'll never leave you
Though in a hundred years or more…
I will stay by you Though we're miles apart

You will always have my heart
And my prayers wherever you are
I will be your friend who'll love you through
I will see your smiles through every yellow rose
I will carry you in my heart…that's all I know
Coz my hand…(though you can't see) 
will always be for you to hold.



Martes, Hulyo 19, 2016

You Deserve Someone Who Never Leaves

Currently my favorite girl crush, AL was on the headlines about her break up. What I feel for her is just a situation I have been before. I have realized I may be in her shoes four years ago. Some people came back after they leave you. You were just here to wait until you were tired and miserable. You would always ask yourself what have happened. Why he left you without any reasons.

You would realize that you deserve “someone” who never leaves. Someone who will never leave you no matter what. Someone who will choose you despite the world against you. Someone who never leaves when you are not in the mood, when you tell them about the things you hated about your past. You deserve someone who never leaves no matter how many girls trying to get his attention. Someone who will still choose you at the end of the day, every single day.

You deserve someone who never leaves when you tell them how much you love them, how much you want them to be happy. How they are special to you and how you really just want to spend your days looking at them and spend your nights in their arms.

You deserve someone who never leaves even if they found a better job, someone who never leaves when they at their best, when they can get anyone they want but still choose you. You deserve someone who believes that you are one of a kind.


You deserve someone who never leaves when things are broken, when things are not exciting, when life becomes gloomy and difficult to handle. You deserve someone who never leaves when you are confused and he is there to remind your strength and how great you are. Someone who will love you until the end and they will fight battles with you.


Miyerkules, Hulyo 13, 2016

Dear girl who's been not fight for,

Just because he is already with a new girl, it doesn't mean you already forgotten. He might think he was greatful to have this girl rather than to have you in his longest time. He would think that the girl he has now was prettier than you. He would think that she has the most good character than yours.

He might probably think that she found the one. The one that deserve to fight for. He might think he's more compatible with that girl than he was with you. (you're too complicated!)You should not compare yourself to her and feel like you are not good enough.He might just not see all your efforts and what's your worth.

He might not see your value, but I take my standards to be able to recognize what value I have. He might not able to realize what you deserve, but you should be able to give yourself what you deserve. Sure, he was with another girl but time will come that you have also a man who would fight you against the world imperfections.

Huwebes, Hulyo 7, 2016

I've Learned that...

  • In life, the shit that stresses you won’t matter each day. Chill and stay happy.
  • Just because everyone having it, doesn’t mean you have to. (Be satisfied and contented)
  • THE VALUE OF WORK IS NOT DETERMINED BY THE AMOUNT OF ATTENTION IT GETS OR THE LIKES (Intense!)

  • The mistake in your past doesn’t mean you could not change anymore.
  • The older I am, the more I priority my family, the times I am not with them
  • Respect. If someone treats you like crap, don’t be afraid to call them out.
  • Find people who will love you, accept you through all phases of your life! (I’ve found HIM!)
  • Bad days? Everyone has it. It is okay. I WILL be better. Promise
  • We are all born ignorant. And sometimes we are the toxic person themean person, thebully. Just because you didn’t know better before, doesn’t mean you can not grow.  I WILL be better.

Biyernes, Hulyo 1, 2016

Friday Playlist ] 01

It’s July! that quick!I was thinking (some random thoughts) I have to be patient in everything that happened in my life right now. Sometimes it must be the weather why I am that sad, that lethargic me! Though in some years, I been tough enough for all the pain and struggle, beside I a, happy now with what I am surrounded by positive people, and loved by my family.


Anyway I am starting this month with a playlist (aka) Friday feels! I have been into alternative and some "hugot" songs that I love. I have varied taste in music, sometimes I'm into pop, then into punk pop then back again to alternative. Enjoy listening! :) 

1. Fix You- Coldplay
2. Affection-The All American Rejects
3. Don't look back in anger- Oasis
4. When it rains- Paramore
5. Photograph- Ed Sheeran
6. Exit Wounds- The Script
7. Good Life- One Republic
8. Grenade- Bruno Mars
9. Kiss it Better- Rihanna
10. Remedy- Jason Mraz

Sabado, Hunyo 11, 2016

I Need Someone

I need someone who is comfortable with my silent moments because sometimes I just do not wanted to talk. But I also need someone who will listen to all my musings because sometimes I do not shut up.

I need someone who knows how to handle my mood because it may switch 367 times in a day. But I need someone who will make put me in great mood because sometimes I irritate myself for having different emotions every 5 minutes. I need someone who knows that I value my privacy a lot. But I also need someone who will hug me tight and say, “Hey, you’re not alone”

I need someone who tells me that everything is going to be okay and I don’t have to feel shitty all the time. But I also need someone who will embrace the chaos within me.

 I have found him..no actually I’m still not quite sure. And I hate not being sure, so maybe I haven’t found him yet. I don’t know. All I know is that someone’s out there and I’m going to hunt him down.

Linggo, Nobyembre 29, 2015

I Broke Up With the Person I Loved the Most

Two years ago , I ended our relationship which lasted almost four years. Two years of friendship and commitment for two years. People and even his families against with us because of the 10 years age gap, but who cares, I loved him! I made this decision and I think it is best cos I am happy.
I love him! Infact, my feelings never changed.
I loved him with all my heart. I changed myself to be matured one.
But like they say, good things come to an end. I remember a quote from 500 days of Summer, “Some people are meant to fall in love with each other but not meant to be together” It’s been a roller-coaster ride, I should say. 

I broke up with him and it was the hardest decision I’ve made. The past couple of weeks were very challenging for us. There are times when I couldn’t understand him anymore.

There were so many issues, to name a few: I haven’t met his parents yet; he has so many plans and I’m not even part of it; he will work abroad but he never gave me an assurance that it would be us until the end; his friends don’t like me and I felt like he doesn’t care.

Well I guess he has his own reasons. But whatever his reasons are, I would find them hard to understand. I only want simple things in life; I only want him to stand up for me especially that he’s leaving the country soon. But I think he doesn’t know the word EFFORT. 
He was so busy thinking about his future that he forgot to include me in his plans. But who am I to complain? He had everything planned before he met me and unluckily for me, he is so focused and no one can ever come between him and his goals in life, not even me. 

When I texted him that I’m setting him free, guess what? Without any objections or hesitations, he said okay. 

So I guess I was right. He loved m,e but not the same way that I do. It’s like he’s stabbing me with a knife straight to my heart and killing me slowly. The pain is just so hard to bear. I've been crying for hours now and I don’t know how long I’ll be like this. 

I wish there was a pain killer that would help me ease the pain. All the happiness was replaced by so much pain and sadness. I don’t know how to tell my family and friends about our breakup because they thought that our love was strong and that we were a perfect couple. 

It hurts so much and I feel like there’s nothing left for me to cry. I feel so broken, my heart is being squeezed and I can't breathe. How I wish there’s a time machine. I want to fast-forward the time because I know only time can heal the pain.
Maybe God wanted me to feel this pain. At the end of the day, there’s always a lesson learned. I am so weak and vulnerable right now, but I know someday this experience will make me strong. So for now, I will focus on myself and my dreams because I kind of lost my focus during the two years of us being together. 

My whole world revolved around him that I forgot I should love myself too. I will keep myself busy doing things that I’d love to do and enjoy life to the fullest. 

A year from now, I want to see myself fully recovered from heartaches and

 when I read this note, I’ll simply laugh about it and tell myself "You are a better person now–no more heartaches and always be happy."